You've Got Mail

I write to you,with only a whopping 3 hours of sleep under my belt from last night. how do i do it? coffee…friends .. random thoughts….but i won’t get into my antics.

I've been thinking about you. Last night I came online, i had a gut feeling you would be online..and you weren't there. I wish I knew why i felt so foolish. As I waited, someone else showed up, thus forcing me to sign out and write a mail to you instead..

Though i can hardly believe what i wrote mattered to you,but what if it did? no matter what u throw to me there is no excuse for my behavior. anyway i so wanted to talk to you. i hope you have a good reason for your silence or the pause you throw at me. you don't seem like the kind of person who'd do something like that.

Once the mail was sent(Sun, Jun 5, 2011 at 01:18 AM), there came the restlessness.... i spent all night tossing and turning trying to figure out what i should have said? what should i have said? my impatience was at an all-time high!! I was out with my two close friends having those midnight coffee-conversations but i wait impatiently starring at my cell as i check for a reply…and as i watch the sunrise from the bayview i did get the surprise alert “You’ve Got Mail” (Sun, Jun 5, 2011 at 5:59 AM) My breath catches in my chest as i read your reply...i could hear nothing...not even a sound.... i finally have mail from you ... ohhh yes!!! some very powerful words.

but as i pinched myself to reality i realized that the odd thing about this form of communication is you're more likely to talk about nothing than something and that’s exactly what you did... your reply was just enough to be some kind of a template. I doubt if you can feel the concern behind the messages i try to share to you? i hope you do. But still It wasn't personal...your reply what is that supposed to mean? I am so sick of it. All that means is that it wasn't personal to you. but it was personal to me.

the final nail was hit by the gmail team,with this new priority inbox thing – 'mail marked important mainly because of your interaction with messages in the conversation

I just want to say that all this nothing has meant more to me than so many something’s. so, thanks for giving me this 'you've got mail' moment !!!